Knowing

知道的

Knowing changes things.

Even when someone has known me for years, when they actually learn about what happened, things change.

That's okay. 

I'm still me. 

I haven't changed at all.

Only their understanding has changed. 

Responses like

"I love you so much"

"You are so strong"

"This does not change the fact that I am your friend" 

"I'm so sorry"

"You didn't deserve this" 

all spring from the simple fact that the response 

"This doesn't change how I view you" 

is a lie. 

And that's okay. 

If what I've just told you doesn't change how you view me, 

you are the most heartless person in the world. 

I know knowing changes you. 

I've been on both sides of that coin. 

But change doesn't determine the outcome. 

What you do with change does. 

I've given you a part of me.

Your move.

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No matter how many times I tell someone, I still wonder what they're thinking.

They're my friends. I should know what they're thinking. 

But maybe ignorance is bliss. 
And again, maybe it's not.

"Iron sharpens iron, and one man sharpens another." -Proverbs 27:17

Lord, You've given me treasures in the form of friends. Thank You. Thank You. Thank You.